my bucket list

I've watched people write bucket lists, and I've never thought to do the same. I've never felt the urge. I've always been content to let life hit me, told God that life was good and I wouldn't feel cheated if I never got to do some of the things most people aim their lives towards. I guess we all change.
This summer I have been hit with the desire to do many things. Many more things than I can fit into my plan at the moment, things that will have to wait, even though I don't want them to. Is it right, I wonder, to write that list down so that I have something to lament if it never comes to be? Can't I continue to live in the satisfaction that my life has been good, that life is good, and that God has not cheated me of anything? But isn't it also right to look forward at life and see potential? To see all the things that may be? To dream of the many, many good things yet to come?
I am not sure which is best anymore, but I have the desire to write some dreams down so that they may come to be when I have time to work them out. Hopefully in doing so I don't forget that my passions are inspired by God and hopefully if I fulfill them it will be in pursuit of loving God, her people, and her creation. And so, my bucket list, as it exists so far:
- to find a home of my own, either a place, a person, or a people that I can come back to time and time again (this one I can wait for, but I hope it is out there for me somewhere)
- to spend time living on the water. travel the world on a tall ship or just a spend some time on a simple house boat.
- to travel with no set destination. a good amount of time with a good companion(s)somewhere in the world where the goal is to explore, to learn, and to love.
- to interpret history. for a day, a summer, or a career I want to live in costume at a historical site and tell the stories of past to those who want to learn them.
- to find a place where my gifts, my love for academia and for justice, can help change the world. currently this looks like a law degree... but maybe not!
- to hitchhike. it's dangerous, but so is life. (of course I still wont do it without a male companion though)
- to live in community. because i believe God made people to need people.
- and to love? that sounds like a stupid thing to end a bucket list with, but it's true. I want to learn to love.

Comments

  1. GraCeAugust 3, 2010 at 4:47 PM

    AMEN, my love.

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  2. EnnsplaceAugust 12, 2010 at 12:40 PM

    what? Chad isn't on the list!!!! maybe you are just beginning to discover what to put on it. For me, almost half a century and still at it. making a list that is.

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  3. BekahAugust 12, 2010 at 10:05 PM

    this list is free from specifics for a reason. it is free to breath and to change, but to stay grounded in my passions and my love for God.

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