summer reset season
My reset season is always summer time. Usually I also have something new to look forward to for the end of August - a new school year, a new program, a move to a new city. In January I struggle to wrap my head around the concept of "new year," but it is summer when I actually experience new.
This year August wont bring much that is new into my schedule, but I feel the reset season coming on anyway. It's the same job from the spring, the same city I moved to almost a year ago, the same communities and friendships I've been building on this year, the same beau, etc. But I am feeling myself fill with the annual sense of anticipation, the prayerful thoughtfulness of preparing for uncertainties to come, the contentment from knowing that the path ahead is the right one for me.
Perhaps it has to do with how summer makes my soul sing. The warmth, the day light, the time with people make my heart glow. And I somehow manage to reconnect with the Bekah I want to be.
Perhaps it has to do with a July full of intentional time with family and loved ones (a long weekend in Harrisonburg with my college soul mates, a week and a half in Ontario to celebrate my brother's wedding with family, a weekend at the beach with Matt's family). Of taking time to dream with people who love me, who have watched me grow and become, who can act as sounding boards for me as I sketch out what my dreams are. Of taking me time, quiet time to be in awe of the world and let the pieces fall into place. Of reading stories of young women who take their lives in adventurous stride, learning to cultivate their strengths and leaping into their futures with tremendous courage (whether that be vampire slaying, driving ambulances at the front during the Great War, wading into the land of fae and learning the art of magic, or time-travelling to learn the art of spell weaving).
The future for Bekah is not set yet (it never really is, is it?) but I can see it start to unfold in front of me. Nothing big is changing in the next few months - my 9-5 is the same, but I have some goals and long term plans beginning to form. A list of to-dos for the next few months that have nothing to do with the work I am being paid for and everything to do with who I am becoming. Grad school research. Planning my three month adventure in traveling starting in December. And continuing to marvel at the wonder of the world, of sitting in the hammock in my back yard, reading more stories of courageous and fantastical women, of watching waves break on the sand at the beach, of soaking up the sun and soaking in the river water, of smelling the crepe myrtles and planning for fall campfires.
This year August wont bring much that is new into my schedule, but I feel the reset season coming on anyway. It's the same job from the spring, the same city I moved to almost a year ago, the same communities and friendships I've been building on this year, the same beau, etc. But I am feeling myself fill with the annual sense of anticipation, the prayerful thoughtfulness of preparing for uncertainties to come, the contentment from knowing that the path ahead is the right one for me.
Perhaps it has to do with how summer makes my soul sing. The warmth, the day light, the time with people make my heart glow. And I somehow manage to reconnect with the Bekah I want to be.
Perhaps it has to do with a July full of intentional time with family and loved ones (a long weekend in Harrisonburg with my college soul mates, a week and a half in Ontario to celebrate my brother's wedding with family, a weekend at the beach with Matt's family). Of taking time to dream with people who love me, who have watched me grow and become, who can act as sounding boards for me as I sketch out what my dreams are. Of taking me time, quiet time to be in awe of the world and let the pieces fall into place. Of reading stories of young women who take their lives in adventurous stride, learning to cultivate their strengths and leaping into their futures with tremendous courage (whether that be vampire slaying, driving ambulances at the front during the Great War, wading into the land of fae and learning the art of magic, or time-travelling to learn the art of spell weaving).
The future for Bekah is not set yet (it never really is, is it?) but I can see it start to unfold in front of me. Nothing big is changing in the next few months - my 9-5 is the same, but I have some goals and long term plans beginning to form. A list of to-dos for the next few months that have nothing to do with the work I am being paid for and everything to do with who I am becoming. Grad school research. Planning my three month adventure in traveling starting in December. And continuing to marvel at the wonder of the world, of sitting in the hammock in my back yard, reading more stories of courageous and fantastical women, of watching waves break on the sand at the beach, of soaking up the sun and soaking in the river water, of smelling the crepe myrtles and planning for fall campfires.
I love this. I like that term "reset season" -- I'm feeling it myself in big ways, but I think I would feel it even if nothing huge were changing. Yours sounds beautiful!
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